i was taken by surprise. as the sun beat down and the lazy bumble bees awoke from their slumber i was taken by surprise.
spring has arrived. whilst i meticulously created resources and perfected my enthusiastic face the seasons changed outside my window.
i watched as ants clambered over one another and swallows swoop from the nest they had crafted in the roof of a neighbours house.
i thought about it all. all the mess and the noise and struggle of the term. i thought about the ease with which i have completed the teaching.
and of the determination i have used up to drag myself home each night.
i thought about driving away. about crickets chirping in the oppressive heat.
i thought about all the things that make up my life, of all the things that are bought to make up my world, of all the times i think, 'i want.'
i thought about how much energy it takes to be 2. about how much energy it takes to climb the rungs of forgiveness and settle down in the fort you have created for yourself.
in the sunshine. with the crickets chirping and the bumblebees softly roaming around.
it's funny how flying colours don't apply to the hollow valleys of life.