i am doing this.
i am waking up before the sun and sleep walking my way through the stretched out days.
i am dressing myself and feeding myself
and not being violently ill from the food.
i am listening to songs that are so beautiful they can't help but remind me of what i am doing
of the beauty i believe i can bring
of the voices each of us have.
i am drowning in subjective pronouns and curriculum targets
and sitting in classes taught by talented and brilliant teachers.
i am trying to figure out how to get my ideas on to the page
and how my ability to make things pretty
can make this stuff
and something that needs to be learnt.
i am missing dog walks and movie nights and chocolate on weekdays.
because i am certain i can do this.
i am determined to do this
i am going to do this.